“Mom, I don’t need to die.”
Jan Towery shared her son Jeremy’s story with a crowd of about 75 folks, and the way he as soon as begged her to assist save his life. They have been at Noble Park Tuesday evening to acknowledge Worldwide Overdose Consciousness Day, a world occasion that’s held yearly on Aug. 31.
4 Rivers Behavioral Well being and Turning Level Restoration Heart, each of which hosted the occasion, additionally supplied greater than 400 biodegradable purple balloons for the gang to launch at sundown. The balloons honored the 41 folks within the Buy Space who died of a drug overdose in 2020.
Towery hoped sharing her story and Jeremy’s story would assist others start having discussions about dependancy, and to deal with dependancy like an sickness and never an ethical failing.
Towery recalled her son, Jeremy, calling her one evening in 2010 and begging for assist to beat his drug dependancy. Jeremy entered remedy, struggling to stay persistently sober till he entered long-term remedy at CenterPoint in Paducah, his mom mentioned.
All he wished in life, his mom mentioned, was “peace, a small home and a fishing boat.”
After which on the evening of June 26, 2020, Towery awoke and noticed some headlights within the driveway. A state trooper exited the automobile, walked as much as the home and knocked on the door.
Jeremy’s illness had caught up with him once more. However this time, a mom’s worst fears had been realized.
“I’m sorry, ma’am, however I’ve to let you recognize that your son has died of a suspected drug overdose.”
Jeremy’s path to remedy
Like many youngsters, Jeremy experimented with alcohol and marijuana whereas rising up in Bowling Inexperienced, Towery mentioned. After highschool, Jeremy started utilizing opioids.
“It wasn’t an issue till it was,” Towery informed the gang.
What despatched Jeremy into an additional spiral, his mom mentioned, was the loss of life of his toddler son. Not solely was Jeremy’s son J.J. born six weeks untimely in November of 2008, however he was additionally born with hypoplastic left coronary heart syndrome. With out a number of surgical procedures or a coronary heart transplant, the situation is deadly.
Docs additionally discovered traces of 4 illicit medicine in his system, indicating the mom had been utilizing medicine throughout her being pregnant.
Sadly, Towery’s grandson J.J. had issues following two coronary heart surgical procedures. Towery watched as Jeremy and his girlfriend held J.J. of their arms as he took his final breath in March of 2009.
“That was my first causality to dependancy,” Towery mentioned.
Towery mentioned his son’s loss of life despatched Jeremy right into a deep despair, and he was trapped with the burden of J.J.’s quick life. He continued utilizing opioids to deal with his emotional ache till he referred to as his mom with a plea to avoid wasting his life in 2010.
Jeremy was out and in of jail and short-term rehab for about 5 years, Towery mentioned. Ultimately, authorities picked Jeremy up for not paying a positive. Towery mentioned the decide in his case noticed that Jeremy wanted critical assist and ordered him to long-term remedy.
“That was a golden ticket,” Lowery mentioned.
That’s how Jeremy ended up at CenterPoint. Towery mentioned the power lastly helped Jeremy deal with why he was utilizing opioids.
Jeremy accomplished his first go-round of long-term remedy virtually precisely 5 years in the past on Aug. 30, 2016. Towery’s son, the son she knew earlier than his dependancy illness consumed him, was again.
“I noticed a 360 in my son. I had Jeremy again. He was loving, caring, humorous, and he helped numerous folks,” Towery mentioned.
Relapses and a re-entry to remedy
Jeremy then labored as a peer mentor at CenterPoint and at Genesis in Hopkinsville till 2019, when Towery mentioned Jeremy modified fields and started working in development.
That very same 12 months, he relapsed and overdosed. That overdose was handled with Narcan at a hospital, and Jeremy swore to Towery it could be the final time.
Two months later, he overdosed once more, and was handled with Narcan, once more. This time, he was arrested for drug possession.
His probation officer allowed Jeremy to return to CenterPoint to deal with why he relapsed, finally finishing a second spherical of remedy.
The final time Towery noticed her son was June 20, 2020. Jeremy was going night-fishing with one in every of his associates.
“I gave him an enormous hug and an enormous kiss. I informed him I cherished him, and he informed me he cherished me, too,” Towery mentioned.
On June 26, 2020 Towery despatched her older son a message wishing him a contented birthday. She went about her day, though she recalled having a sense one thing was not proper. She went to mattress early that evening, and awoke because the state trooper arrived at her residence. On the day celebrating the beginning of 1 son, she misplaced one other.
“I’ll by no means be the identical individual I used to be that morning. Daily is a wrestle. I placed on a contented face. I am going to work. I do my job. My coronary heart has actually been ripped out of my chest,” Towery informed the gang as she choked again tears.
What bodily stays of Jeremy matches in Towery’s arms. To shut her speech, Towery leaned over, reached into her belongings and pulled out a silver, black-banded urn containing the ashes of her son.
Towery entered the gang to launch the balloons with Brandon Fitch, program director of Turning Level and a pal of Jeremy’s, at her facet. As the gang launched the balloons, Towery and Fitch despatched up a bundle of about 10 balloons. As the 2 stood side-by-side watching the balloons take flight, Towery saved another in her left hand, and waited earlier than letting go of that final balloon.